Dots...

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In the first ever blog post for "These Five Walls" I gave you a disclaimer about my grammar and how I make up words.

So now here are some more......I like dots!  I like to use them because I think periods are harsh ways to end my sentences.  They seem so final....but dots give me a way to trail my voice and hopefully share some of the emotion in what I am saying....so if they don't drive you completely batty...hang in there with me.

I do hope that you will find something in what we share.....

Ok...I thought it might be nice to share a bit about myself and "These 5 Walls".  My name is Darcy DeBord and I am the proud owner of a little Interior Design business

White Birch Design Company, LLC (Formally Gate House Designs,LLC).
I love the world of design, and I use my own home and children as test subjects, when trying out all sorts of things.  Paint colors, design trends, etc.  I mean seriously I actually have burlap drapes because Ballard Design Magazine sells them , and my clients want to know if they work.  So what better way to tell them...then own them.

But that aside, my business is just a small part of who I am.  What goes on within the "Walls" of my home, is where life really happens.  It is where I try new things, get inspired, and watch my family of "5" grow.  Hence "These 5 Walls"

I want to share projects, food, style, and of course being a parent....and as you read in the first blog ....our journey....on how to deal with our grief of losing one of our own.  My friends keep asking me if I have thought about therapy.  Well this is my therapy....and my hope is that I can inspire someone else....someday.  The blog wasn't intended to be only about grief, but when you are where I am...it seems grief consumes everything. 

The sunshine helps and the rain?  Well dreary makes good company...Lets just say..bring on the sunshine.  Which might be a challenge when you live in Western Oregon.

I can't help but feel that if my sister just could have made it to spring and saw the sun...things might have been different.  I guess you try to come up with all sorts of what if's.  I did however recently hear something that stuck...

"You can't find rational answers in an irrational decision".  It caused me to pause, cry and and then a small smile appreared...why ? You ask?

I am turning 40 this month...

I just lost my sister....

I have a daughter turning 18 this year...

I have another daughter who just got her drivers learning permit...

My youngest daughter is now a teenager...

...I am not sure I even know what rational is....:)